I am tired

"I am tired. Not the in the compliment sense where there is just a linking verb. No. Tired has become a state of being for me, a verb in itself, so all encompassing that is owns me, it envelopes me, it chases me. No, tired is no longer an adjective; it is a cruel controlling adversary that stalks me. It tries to pin me to the bed when I wake up and it doggedly follows me through every moment of my day, bringing with it a sense of desperation that there is so much to accomplish with little energy to succeed. I am bridled with a sense of failure, that I have lost the battle before I have even begun it. I cry out against it, I find myself panicking at the thought of it, I resist it and yet it has unhinged its jaws like a hungry serpent to consume me. I am tired."